| Maybe I change my mind?
I do know why I was so down last night. And I'm not quite sure if I'm entitled to feel abandoned... I did say I was fine. The veneer was so fake though, I don't see how he could have believed me. It's all for the better and I'm over it for the most part.
And I think I'll go get a haircut today or tomorrow. Yes. That is it. |
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| I think that this [points around in general direction] is done and over with.
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| It is 3:45 am. I got into bed at 11:06 pm, probably fell asleep half an hour after that. I woke up excited to go to school. I just realized though how out of touch I've been with a lot of people. It makes me think. Do I have my priorities straight? That totally sounds like something I would not say. Hm. I'm in a good mood though. I hope everyone else is happy too.
I think sometimes I don't think through my actions enough. Oh well. I don't know why I'm not panicked though. I usually fuck things up somehow by now... inadvertently. I haven't done anything yet. I'm pretty sure I haven't. I honestly hope I haven't either. It's nice how things have worked out. I still think Jennifer staged a lot of it, but [shrug], at this point I don't really think I'd be as angry as I would have been at that moment in time.
Oh. And I think I'm not doing so well in English so I don't know what the hell is going to happen to be once my parents see the progress report. Maybe they'll see it like it is, only a progress report. Nothing more. |
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| I am in an incredibly happy mood.  |
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| Every time the phone rings I think my heart beats a little bit faster.
And then it'll drop and fall to the floor.
Disapointment blows. |
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